A man that hath friends must show himself friendly...

I really don't have anything to blog about today, but I'm bored so I decided to write anyway...

I keep thinking about this book I want to write about being married to a diabetic, so I started typing a few days ago - I love to read, but I'm not sure that writing is my thing. I was always good at creative writing in school, but when i read what I wrote, it just said blah blah blah.... so scratch that idea. I might as well just blog about the trials that I have being married to a diabetic, that serves the same purpose...

I think I have decided on my New Year's Resolution... Here lately, I've had several different people come up to me and ask me if I'm mad, and I've really been thinking about that. Sometimes they are people that I work with, sometimes it's church members, but if people around me think I'm mad, it's because my countenance is showing it. I've really been thinking about that - what my face shows about me. Sometimes it says things that I would never say outloud I guess. I know the Bible has alot to say about our countenance, so I want to start a Bible study about that. Another thing that has been bothering me lately is this - what kind of friend am i? I wonder about that?? Am I the kind of friend that is fair weather? Do I stick with my friends thru thick and thin? Can they depend on me to be there when they need me? Do my friends trust me? Am I trustworthy? One thing I know for sure, A man that hath friends must show himself friendly. It seems to me that ever since Candy (my best friend in the whole wide world) moved away, I haven't been friendly. I know I can't replace her in my life, and I wouldn't ever want to replace her - besides she's only a phone call and a 4 hr drive away :)
but sometimes you just want someone (a girl friend) to hang out with... I haven't found that person. I know it's my own fault, I'm such a homebody - but I'm supposed to be - I have a family there! And my soul mate, my husband. At any rate, I still know in my heart, that I want to work on being a better friend. I want to be more outgoing this year, I've been so introverted the last few years - I've always said that turtles were my favorite animal for a reason - I can relate to their shell. I think we build shell's around us to protect ourselves to some extent, but my New Year's Resolution is to come out of my shell and to make myself friendly.